A Pinch of Pine

So December is upon us…

Are you thinking of resolutions already? Or are you rushing to fulfil some forgotten dreams?

I? I am of a queer mood this month. I want to take leave of the routine and wander off to some place unknown. I wish to dig my nose in dried out roses, feel its pricking on my cheeks and know what life feels like.

I want to stare into voids that fill hearts when someone dear has left for another or another world. I want to feel the pangs of first love and the adrenaline rush the first kiss brings. I want a little of this and that, and then nothing at all.

Is it a weird nothingness that envelops me or heightened poignancy that shreds me?

Am I too conscious or too lost?

How am I to know?

Asha Seth